ANXIETY

You come knocking on my door
in the most hideous times
like an unwanted guest,
uninvited.
You made me restless,
out of breath,
scared of all things unknown
giving me multiple sleepless nights,
making me sweat in the dark for no valid reason.
I tried to let you go,
but like every uninvited guest
you never took the name of leaving,
you are tenacious like a gum
stuck in the hair,
unremovable unless cut off completely,
leaving you bald and stained.

Hi there! I hope you are all well, just wanted to dig in a little on anxiety today as we all know it doesn’t leave anyone untouched. I’ve been having anxiety attacks a lot lately, much more than I like to admit. So I said to myself it’s not gonna leave me alone so let me go ahead and write on it to make me feel a little lighter, it really did. Words and music are how I deal with my anxiety, what’s yours? Comment down below how you deal with your anxiety.

Happy readings to all, I wish you well. πŸ™ƒ

The introvert writer Β© 2022

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Daphny Aqua

A passionate writer who pours out her heart in her writtings.

60 thoughts on “ANXIETY”

  1. Expressing it – creatively or otherwise – getting those feeling out and the open – always a clever way to deal with those difficult emotions. Lovely poem Daphny – hope you’re feeling calmer πŸ™

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    1. Thank you so much dear Luisa! I am glad to know you can relate to it but that much sad I am you had to go through it as well. Be well dear friend. ❀️❀️❀️❀️

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  2. I am glad you are writing about your anxieties! It helps to put it all in words. You did a great job. I love these descriptive images…
    you are tenacious like a gum

    stuck in the hair,

    unremovable unless cut off completely,

    leaving you bald and stained.

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  3. I agree with rothpoetry–the “gum in the hair” analogy is brilliant. This is so, so relatable. I suffer from anxiety as well, and have since childhood. I’m in my eleventh year of counseling now, still trying to figure out a lot of things (depression, anxiety, terrible insomnia, PTSD). I tend to have a sort of constant, low-key anxiety. I’ve never had a full-blown panic attack but my sister has described hers to me and they sound harrowing. I just always have it going in the back of my mind, and it intensifies when I’m around people in public or when I have to be somewhere or do something. I find any sort of creative outlet to be a huge help in dealing with anxiety. As a teen and in my 20s, this meant writing and music (both listening and playing/writing on my guitars). Deafness took my guitars away from me but to this day I still have music in my head constantly. I can’t really listen to music anymore, but all those old songs from my youth still play and I sing them to myself to help alleviate anxiety. It helps a lot. Also, walking is good as it allows me to think as well as burns off all that nervous, anxious energy that can lead to sleepless nights. I wish there were a cure for this stuff. I’m working on accepting it as part of my life while learning to not let it have any control over me. Easier said than done, but it supposedly is more effective than fighting it. It’s called ACT: Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. I hope with all my heart your anxiety will abate and allow you to have peace of mind, Daphny. From one sufferer to another, I’m pulling for you! πŸ™‚

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    1. This is such a heart warming comment Mike, thank you so much. Really sorry to hear of what you and your sister has to go through. I don’t know the root of my anxiety, mom says I’ve always had insomnia since the day I was born and I can’t sleep with lights of it gets me to full panic mode but so far none of it has been too terrible and I am on medications so hopping for the best. In your comment you mentioned about deafness, do you mind if I may ask what happened?
      I do wish the music in your mind never fades. It is really easier said than done and we are one lucky lot to find comfort in our words and to let it all out here. I wish you well my friend, I am pulling for you as well. πŸ€—

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      1. Thanks, Dap\hny. Your words are a comfort. As for my deafness, I developed meningitis at age 18 and it damaged the auditory nerves in both ears. Thus began my progressive hearing loss. I had hearing aids at ages 21 and 26, but they didn’t help. I eventually was granted disability status for deafness (and some other issues like depression). In 2016 I was tested to see if cochlear implant surgery might help me, but that didn’t go well either as I’d been deaf for so long that the surgery would be pointless and wouldn’t improve my hearing loss. So, my deafness continues to worsen and if I live long enough it will likely become total deafness. I have some essays on my blog (Essays section in the Menu) that talk about my deaf experiences if you’re interested in finding out more. I’ve fought against accepting my deafness for 40 years and it’s a battle I can’t win, so it’s another issue I must learn to finally accept at some point if I ever want to find any peace in my life. Thanks so much for your interest and concern. It means a lot to me. It’s so nice to know there are kind people out there who care. πŸ™‚

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      2. You are one brave person Mike, I really applaud you for that. That must have been one devastating journey but you got through life and found your peace, you are an inspiration to all. I sure will go read about it in your blog. I hope your head is always filled with all the glorious sounds one can possibly ever hear. I wish you well my friend, I have nothing but respect for you. πŸ™‚

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  4. So well done Daphny and powerful imagery!
    loved these lines!
    “you never took the name of leaving,

    you are tenacious like a gum

    stuck in the hair,

    unremovable unless cut off completely,

    leaving you bald and stained.”
    πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

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  5. A wonderful write resonating with us all. I had terrible anxiety for a long time, and about 5 years ago I took up meditation and talking with someone about my feelings. Both transformational. I hope the anxiety abates, Daphny. I loved your poem. ❀️πŸ₯°

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    1. Thank you so much dear Jeff! Really glad to know that you got help and got improved, I on the other hand can’t seem to share my feelings to anyone so I hide behind my words, it is helpful though in a way. Thank you for your kind wishes, I’m sure I’ll be in a better space with all the love I get from all of you. πŸ₯°β€οΈ

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    1. Oh! I get you if only we can shut that door we all would slam it at its face I’m sure, I hope you’re anxiety gets better in time. It was a great relief for me to write this down, thank you for stopping by. πŸ™‚βœ¨

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  6. That poem! Whoa, it’s surely reveals the anxiety you’ve had. Sometimes it’s just hard to let go. As for me, whenever I’m anxious, i simply close down everything and watch a movie. It’s funny how drama series help me deal with anxiety. But it’s always for a moment. The longterm remedy is to just write, I’d agree no less. β€β€πŸ‘

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    1. Yeah it never leaves. Its good to know that movies helps for you, me I can’t concentrate in anything writing helps me calm down a little. If only there was a cure. πŸ˜₯✨

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      1. A cure? πŸ˜… I doubt there is any presently physical one. But… maybe Jesus has it. He often say He is the beginning and end. I think He has it in his everlasting word. Just try to read the Bible and pray when faced with anxiety. Thinking it might help. πŸ€—πŸ₯°β€

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